Things getting craziest now!
My life has become worse than hell. I sometimes feel like I should end my life but my daughter, my schoolgoing brothers, sisters and age old parents... they all are dependent on me.
Things are getting worsen everyday. I am ashamed to say this but tonight when I came back home after a hectic day of work to find some peace and prepare for my MBA papers, she started nagging as usual. She is to take her on outing tommorrow as she is bored by now. I resisted saying that I am preparing for my MBA papers and exam is on head so I must study and we could go for outing after my exams. This argument made her violent and she locked the door from outside leaving the daughter with me. My 2 years old daughter started crying as she also disconnected the power supply from outide the room. Duuhhhhh.... what is she up to, I asked her and she replied bluntly "tumhari barbadi, beizzatti... bas aur kuch nahi..." and she opend fire from her mouth.
I am saddened and hurt deeply today. I have already lost my self respect and now losing my interest to live further. What's in a life where I just have to go through all this shit and I can't even complain. If I do I am dragged to police station with plenty of flase allegations that I have been beating her up. My brother had also come and was beating her. Even parents have come and tortured her. The police simply listens to her and when she is away asks for money and compromise with her or be ready for dire consequences. Hell!
Shame on me why I was born in India? Even if I was born why did I study and tried to make a living for my family and myself. Why did I marry in India... Is this the country I am proud of? I hardly believe so. It doesn't let me lead a normal life. Not even abnormal life. It's worst than I could have imagined.
Why would someone make such harsh law without knowing it's consequences if misued. Shame on him... shame on him he must have been a drunkard.
But no I am wrong. This law is there for last 20 years and everyone is blind. Nobody cares today if I am not even allowed to die with peace.
Things are getting worsen everyday. I am ashamed to say this but tonight when I came back home after a hectic day of work to find some peace and prepare for my MBA papers, she started nagging as usual. She is to take her on outing tommorrow as she is bored by now. I resisted saying that I am preparing for my MBA papers and exam is on head so I must study and we could go for outing after my exams. This argument made her violent and she locked the door from outside leaving the daughter with me. My 2 years old daughter started crying as she also disconnected the power supply from outide the room. Duuhhhhh.... what is she up to, I asked her and she replied bluntly "tumhari barbadi, beizzatti... bas aur kuch nahi..." and she opend fire from her mouth.
I am saddened and hurt deeply today. I have already lost my self respect and now losing my interest to live further. What's in a life where I just have to go through all this shit and I can't even complain. If I do I am dragged to police station with plenty of flase allegations that I have been beating her up. My brother had also come and was beating her. Even parents have come and tortured her. The police simply listens to her and when she is away asks for money and compromise with her or be ready for dire consequences. Hell!
Shame on me why I was born in India? Even if I was born why did I study and tried to make a living for my family and myself. Why did I marry in India... Is this the country I am proud of? I hardly believe so. It doesn't let me lead a normal life. Not even abnormal life. It's worst than I could have imagined.
Why would someone make such harsh law without knowing it's consequences if misued. Shame on him... shame on him he must have been a drunkard.
But no I am wrong. This law is there for last 20 years and everyone is blind. Nobody cares today if I am not even allowed to die with peace.
posted by Shubie at 5:37 PM
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